[Diriku] ::: Tak pernah rasa _______________....

Sad right...??
but..it was  happend to mylife...
since i was a boy...
i live without a normal life as MAN...
friends..? never treat me as MAN..
i'm bullied..everyday...without any human sense give it to me..
but dad...always protect me from them...
he's a teacher at my school...so..
he can keep full attention to me..
everytime i had disturb N been bullied, he came N' scold them..
and this make them mad to me..
so..they would never being my friend...
they told me..i'm a coward..
i didn't asked to doin' like that..
at the same time..i felt alone..
from i was a boy...till now as a teenagers..
my father always keep on eyes to me...
so..can i be a great teenagers...?? eemmm...


now..at the date 9th April 2011..
i still separate from 'man'...
i still ignored..being apart from them..
i want...! i want live in their colonies...
goin' out together...
shopping for groceries...
dates..N' others...
but how..? when can i got it...? is it impposible for me..??
OR that's my fate..? always beside N' protected by 'gurls' outthere..? OR protected by my dad till i'm 20 OR 30..??
eeeexxxxxxxxxppplllllllllllaaaaaaaaiiiiiinnnnnnnnn...!!

i want a NORMAL life...!!!!!!!!
who can give me...?
enough...! 

[LOVE] :: Fair...?? Square..?? Is it..??

I looked on my admired fB account just now...
She have someone..
N i accpeted she has someone special in her life...
i still wonder..
N i believe..in this world we must put a lot of effort on everything we want...
World is FAIR...
i agree..

FAIR with what...??
Beautiful with the handsome...??
N Handsome fix for beautiful...??
so..what bout the ugly..??
is it just for an ugly..??
is that the FAIR means..??

i scared with tha world nowdays..
it all bout OUTSIDE...!! not bout the inner personnality...
please human...choose 'someone' based on their future...attitude...
it'll gurantee u'll forever with them...

However,, choice in your HAND...
grab the BEST for the BEST...

[Holiday] :: Finally almost END..!

finally..!
my holiday goin' to last...
arrgghh..! xcukup..
i want more...! 2 weeks OR a month...hahahhaha

it'sookay..
scared there's a lot work need to b settle there...
i didn't get any notes yet...xsignment...heeiisshh..
what bout my passes/skiped class...hahahahah
sengal jerrkk..!

Oh my..
tomorrow the last day...then back to Shah Alam...
then, i'm back with what...??
i didn't hve any transport...
My Gen2 roadtax are expired...
Kancil...my father used it..
KTM...??
errr....how to use it...?? i can't..
errmmm....mcm xbg balik jerr....jom sambung cutiiii...!HAHAHAHAHAH~~~

How ever...life must go on..!
Bye Seremban...Bye n9..
n' here i come Shah Alam...

[Haitii] ::: .M.A.S.A

"Andai dapatku undur masa"


Ofkos...everybody make mistake..!
but..they will realize after they got caught..!
that's normal..
just make it simple..after a mistake..u must leave it..if not..
u'll b like that for ever..!


But..
what i've done...???
damn..!
because of my stupid behaviour i made FUCK decision...!
i leaves who are really needs me..!
i betrayed my promise to my beloved friends...
i made all dispointed..
selfish..! i felt guilty right now..
they need u 'tengku'...!
they'll never moved out to expressed thierself...
errrmmm...
is't my mistake...? what i've done...??
am i too cruel till i ruined their future...?? their spirit...??
is my moved made the situation more worst...??
errrmmm...
but,,,
i'm done it..
'terlajak perahu boleyh undur, terlajak perbuatan...??'
just me knew the reasons of my decision...


btw,,
i just met them this afternoon...
they told me a lot...
sorry guy...
decision hve been made...
i can't turn it back..
life must go on..
i go far to find 'peace' ...
even i didn't get what i want...
atleast i gone from 'them'...
i still love u all..
i still respect my past lecturer...
i still keep tight my memory with u all...
i left for a while...even it's to hard to meets u back..
but i promise..! i'll come back...with success..!