Tengku wasn't around..

Time always goes fast..also to human..
who are late will not easily go to front after..

quite long i didn't update my post yeah..
busy perhaps..
now..it seem like i got a lot of resposible especially to myself..
1st my study..then..my dream career that i must proceed now..
my work that i prmoted to supervisor..my family also to my future fiancee..
yes! end of this year i'll get enggage after i finish my praktical season..
weird right..?
before this i just told my friend i will porpose someone to b my girlfriend at my ages of 35..
but..what happend right now is i'll get engage on end of this year..
huahuahuahua...
that's call 'jodoh'..
oldman said 'if there's meant (jodoh) it'll not escape'...
that was happend to me now..
hopefully..
it all goin' smoothly..
but..someone still can't believe that i belongs to someone..
till i told my trainingmate..they also can't accept it..
for sure..i'm not surprise..
b'coz i still young..and bit impossible to get married in the nearest time..
i didn't said that i'll marriage but enggage..then they believe..
hope! so..

than..i've a lots story to post on my diary's blog..
to those r waiting to next post..
u're most welcome..!

[Diriku] ::: Tak pernah rasa _______________....

Sad right...??
but..it was  happend to mylife...
since i was a boy...
i live without a normal life as MAN...
friends..? never treat me as MAN..
i'm bullied..everyday...without any human sense give it to me..
but dad...always protect me from them...
he's a teacher at my school...so..
he can keep full attention to me..
everytime i had disturb N been bullied, he came N' scold them..
and this make them mad to me..
so..they would never being my friend...
they told me..i'm a coward..
i didn't asked to doin' like that..
at the same time..i felt alone..
from i was a boy...till now as a teenagers..
my father always keep on eyes to me...
so..can i be a great teenagers...?? eemmm...


now..at the date 9th April 2011..
i still separate from 'man'...
i still ignored..being apart from them..
i want...! i want live in their colonies...
goin' out together...
shopping for groceries...
dates..N' others...
but how..? when can i got it...? is it impposible for me..??
OR that's my fate..? always beside N' protected by 'gurls' outthere..? OR protected by my dad till i'm 20 OR 30..??
eeeexxxxxxxxxppplllllllllllaaaaaaaaiiiiiinnnnnnnnn...!!

i want a NORMAL life...!!!!!!!!
who can give me...?
enough...! 

[LOVE] :: Fair...?? Square..?? Is it..??

I looked on my admired fB account just now...
She have someone..
N i accpeted she has someone special in her life...
i still wonder..
N i believe..in this world we must put a lot of effort on everything we want...
World is FAIR...
i agree..

FAIR with what...??
Beautiful with the handsome...??
N Handsome fix for beautiful...??
so..what bout the ugly..??
is it just for an ugly..??
is that the FAIR means..??

i scared with tha world nowdays..
it all bout OUTSIDE...!! not bout the inner personnality...
please human...choose 'someone' based on their future...attitude...
it'll gurantee u'll forever with them...

However,, choice in your HAND...
grab the BEST for the BEST...

[Holiday] :: Finally almost END..!

finally..!
my holiday goin' to last...
arrgghh..! xcukup..
i want more...! 2 weeks OR a month...hahahhaha

it'sookay..
scared there's a lot work need to b settle there...
i didn't get any notes yet...xsignment...heeiisshh..
what bout my passes/skiped class...hahahahah
sengal jerrkk..!

Oh my..
tomorrow the last day...then back to Shah Alam...
then, i'm back with what...??
i didn't hve any transport...
My Gen2 roadtax are expired...
Kancil...my father used it..
KTM...??
errr....how to use it...?? i can't..
errmmm....mcm xbg balik jerr....jom sambung cutiiii...!HAHAHAHAHAH~~~

How ever...life must go on..!
Bye Seremban...Bye n9..
n' here i come Shah Alam...

[Haitii] ::: .M.A.S.A

"Andai dapatku undur masa"


Ofkos...everybody make mistake..!
but..they will realize after they got caught..!
that's normal..
just make it simple..after a mistake..u must leave it..if not..
u'll b like that for ever..!


But..
what i've done...???
damn..!
because of my stupid behaviour i made FUCK decision...!
i leaves who are really needs me..!
i betrayed my promise to my beloved friends...
i made all dispointed..
selfish..! i felt guilty right now..
they need u 'tengku'...!
they'll never moved out to expressed thierself...
errrmmm...
is't my mistake...? what i've done...??
am i too cruel till i ruined their future...?? their spirit...??
is my moved made the situation more worst...??
errrmmm...
but,,,
i'm done it..
'terlajak perahu boleyh undur, terlajak perbuatan...??'
just me knew the reasons of my decision...


btw,,
i just met them this afternoon...
they told me a lot...
sorry guy...
decision hve been made...
i can't turn it back..
life must go on..
i go far to find 'peace' ...
even i didn't get what i want...
atleast i gone from 'them'...
i still love u all..
i still respect my past lecturer...
i still keep tight my memory with u all...
i left for a while...even it's to hard to meets u back..
but i promise..! i'll come back...with success..!

[HOME] ::: i'm home..!

Huh..!
Penat r...
smpi rumah trus on9 fB + myfriends2u.com + 1malaysia.com + tagged + bla..bla..bla..
(bapak bnyk....gile social web btol r...)
lek r..
bru skit je kowt...
xcmpur yg laen2 tuh..hahahahha


btw,,
i'm lil bit 'gian' dgn bende2x mcm ni r...
seb bek mase SPM dulu xwat dak alah ni...
klo x..lingkop r SPM aq mcm mne yg terjadik kat aq mase wat DIPLOMA time akhir2x sem...
mmg hancoq beb..!
tp...
apo den kesah..!
den setup badan...muke...
kasi macho skit...then now...i'm a model..
mne sangke arn...
ade rupe..badan skit..
leyh jadik model...
tuah badan arn...hahahhahaha

[Holiday] :: 4 days left..!

Diam x diam...
tinggal 4 hari jerk...(padehal bru jerr 3 hari cuti...gatal nk post entry...)
cepat jgak arn...
xsmpt nk bau ketiak ibu...da nk balik kolej...
yele...jumaat+sabtu+ ahad ibu da keje...
so..last day dpt pelok2x ibu besok je laa...
nnt rindu plak kat dye...
tp..tdy ade r kawan ibu ckp...
klo rindu..bawak r kain batik OR tuala mandi ibu tu...
mse rindu leyh ciom2x...
eeuuuwwww...
i'm not too desprate k klo bab rindu2an...
aq cool jewp...
yelaaa...i'm lil bit 'manje' dgn mum i...
tu yg mum i syg gilerr kat i..
even i nk pindah kolej pown dye mcm agree xagree jgak la...
sedeyh pown adejgak mse dye tinggalkn i kat Shah Alam...
yelaaa....takowt terkene keJOtan budaye r nk dikatekn...
kepale batakk dye...ngek ngok...!hahahhahahaha

btw,, idop perlu diteroskn..!
target nk tetapkn pointer balik sem depan..
even da tinggal 1 sem je kn..

arrghhh...!
tidaaaaakkk...!
jeles aq ngan student yg dpr PL semalam...
i spoossseee to be there..
damn PUAN R*T*...!
she's annoyed..
but ok..!
if not i'll repeat N' keep repeat the same mistake..!
ok..! da...that's all for this entries...
Gtg..! bye2x...muaxxxhh2x..!   <3 Tengku..